if i don't let you go now...

...i never will

i'm addressing my bitch-ness of the last few...um...years.  or months.  or a year and a couple of months.  two years.  urr...

it most likely doesn't even matter to anyone now (since it's more probable that no one's here and/or checking this) but i am sorry.  too late now, isn't it?

and here's my dramatic sigh.

oh, well.

"you're just a feeling i want to let go / but i don't want to let go of you"

-dice

...I wonder how much stuff I have to do today...

One: History Project

Two: Create costume (muh)

Three: Clean Room

Four: Go to theater play

Five: all OTHER homework

Six: Call Amn and Wils

Seven: ...find Ty's cd...damn...

Eight: find out how to avoid less sleepage without turning up any of the alarmage

Nine: take shower

Ten: hang with cousin

Eleven: eat

Twelve: ...there's actually more, but i won't put it here...it's too long to type out...non pluvie.

right.

I DID THE FOLLOWING THINGS YESTERDAY:

urr...school.  pep rally schedule, got out early...

stood around.

left school (thank toodles)

went to walmart.

schess...walmart

picked up dadd

went home

watched some tv (the 6th sense was on and I had a ball scaring my family by screaming every time a "scary" part came on)

um...started costume...dammit

typed...nothing

got on computer and attempted to NOT lose everything I'd had on there while not being able to see the names every frikking time it would go "microsoft internet explorer has found a problem" and shut down.  damnit

YAY!  Chek it out, I have a new story on MM.org.  Stats;

Title: Claimant

Summary: A not-so-normal occurrence at the Bennet household forces Delia to accept more than just her brother-in-law's death.

Chapters posted: 1

Notes: Contains graphic violence/death (how else would I kill off the brother-in-law) so I wouldn't suggest reading it if you get scared easily at night.  (ghosty sounds)

well, laterz people

-ace

Something someone asked me post (darn you Katie):

HAHAHA (WiitNOTMTT!?) AKA Ace on the "dating game" (omitting ty because we all heart ty)

Day unknown: Post Breakup 1

Zach: hi

Ace: bye

Day unknown: Post-post Breakup 1

Ty: I heart u

Ace: I heart u too

Day unknown: Post-post-post Breakup 1

Ty: I h8 u

Ace: I h8 u more

Ty: no, i definitely h8 u more

Ace: impossible, blasphemous!  derived from the dictionary!

Woman walking by: (to child beside her) don't worry, honey, they're just on drugs.

(Ty and Ace, through fits of laughter): Oh, individuality, imagen!

Day unknown: Dating Chronicle 2

Shae: ...will you be my girlfriend?

Ace: ...sure.

Day unknown: pre-Post Breakup 2

Mitch: Hey, I'm Mike (no, not mike-after-evan-mike, this is MITCH but he's an ass so he never goes by his first name).  Would you like to--

Ace: Bastard.  I'm not interested.  (Runs off to cry)

Day unknown: Post Breakup 2

Ace: T_T

Ty: Iz okay - it'll be fine, sweets.  he's just being an ass.

Ace: SO YOU ADMIT IT!  JUST WAIT TIL I TELL--

Ty: no more shoes and cotton candy for you!

Ace: shoe shiner, my beloved!  NO!  Damn you, noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

...I have no comments on number 3...

Day unknown: Post Breakup 3

Shae: it's the end of the world...

Ty: meatballs are falling from the sky...

Mike (not mitch): cats are actually climbing down trees on their own...

Shae: ice cream is free...

Ty: ...and so are the toppings!  can't forget the toppings.  Ooo!  Look!  It's the hot dog man with his almighty condements of power!  Come on, (Ace) Trip, lez go!

Ace: ...(argh)...

...We're skipping 4 and 5...

Day unknown: Post Heartbreak 5

Ace: Life is officially shit.

Clay: Finally, Ace!  Welcome to the club!

Ace: muh.

Clay: Well, I'm gonna go get drunk with Joe and 'Melia.  Wanna come?

Ace: Me and alcohol no mixy.  We're all underage you twit.

Clay: (sighs) okay, I promise nothing alcoholic.  We'll just get drunk on really, really, really sweet koolaid.  (besides, they don't have anything alcoholic anyway so it didn't really matter.  ...it's a really old inside joke...nevermind...)

Ace: I'd go, but I have an appointment with Ty and a shitload of pixiestix so I'm afraid I'll have to decline.

Clay: Sure.  Tell him and Wils I said hi.

Ace: ...why Wils?

Clay: another fight?

Ace: (sighs)

Clay: Ace--

Ace: I gotta get my shoes shined.  Later.

Clay: Translation: Don't wanna talk about it.  Fuck off.

Ace: exactly! (exits)

...

Yeah.

...

"am i more than you bargained for yet

i've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear

'cause that's just who i am this week"

-fall out boy

To someone who breaks hearts unintentionally.  To someone who at times really doesn't give a damn.  To someone that is unable to cry out for help from anyone.  To someone who is on my mind constantly.  Here's to our last conversation.  Cheers.

breathing in so deep

then finding out you don't have a reason to breathe

"the scars on this heart just won't fade

just look at all the pain and hurt you've made"

he's up there -- murmuring words alongside the radio

"I tried my best to help and look where it's gotten me,

another dozen bruises and yet another fucking broken heart"

no one could ever help him so all he can do is run away

no one could ever understand what he goes through every day

"the scars here will always remain, now and forever"

"but isn't forever an awfully long time?"

"not as long as every fucking day of my life has been so far"

-ace

"and the scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel"

-Scars by Papa Roach

"there's a long drop and a sudden drop

for anyone who crosses the line"

-Leigh R.

"lighting fireworks in parking lots, illuminate the darkest nights

cherry cokes under this moonlit summer sky

2015 riverside it's time to say goodbye"

-the ataris

she hates ska, she won't dance

guess that i don't have a chance

why does she come to shows anyway

she hates ska, she won't dance

i don't have a hell of a chance with her

why does she come 'round in her vans anyway

(i had to put something interesting.  added bonus that it's a kickass song)